Lockdown is slowly ending and there are a lot of changes happening after a long and interesting year.
My shop is open again on Monday, which couldn’t make me happier, I just wish my brain would tell my body that.
The last few days before opening again and my mood and energy are low, I don’t know where to put myself, I’m tired and bad tempered (nothing new there...) but it all comes down to one phrase which is ringing in my head.
“Autistic people don’t like change.”
It’s true that I like things the way I like them. My coffee brand, my clothes, my hair colour, but changes do affect me in a way I’ve never been able to describe properly and I think it’s the same for a lot of people out there.
I love my job, I miss my job being the way it was, I can’t wait for my job to become reality again, but my body has a different agenda.
In situations of change, I see my mind and body being two separate things. My mind is the parent and my body is the child.
Mind: Yay! We get to go back to work!
Body: But we were ok here.
Mind: Come on! It’s not that bad. You get to see everyone again.
Body: Ok, but we need more sleep. Let’s not get up today.
Mind: You’ll get to go out again!
Body: Nah, our back hurts.
And so on....
This battle between body and mind; adult and inner child; has been going on for as long as I can remember. 9/10 times, adult wins and life goes on as normal, it just takes a small adjustment period.
I’m sure this is the same for a lot of people but no one ever talks about it due to fear of seeming weak (or mad) but it’s ok. I know my son has been going through similar with school being off and on and he’s handled it like a champ.
Change happens and it will be ok.
As always, if this resonates with anyone, I’m always here to talk.
Much love
XxXxX
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